Activation Experience with questions
It really started in 2011.
I experienced five straight years of emotional trauma and loss. In 2011, I was in a relationship for the first time in years and it ended when I found out that he was cheating. I became depressed and couldn't eat anything but walnuts.
Prior to that, for years I would wake up at 2-3 a.m. almost daily. I still have issues sleeping.
Spring of 2012, I started taking powdered grasses and more nuts more than I ate food...this is still true. Started doing yoga during the summer; mainly heart openers. I never knew or believed in chakras, but I saw them for the first time around December 18 or 19, 1012.
A couple of months ago, I spontaneously did a "still breath" and felt my soul. Before that I was up all night with an terrible headache that made me vomit for hours.
Started meditating a month or so ago, I never thought that I could/would do it. It wasn't guided, I just prayed, laid on the floor and let go. I started seeing lights some bright and some faint, but they all have movement. Last night, I saw eyes and light.
A few weeks ago, my vibe was so high that I ate low vibe food. Unfortunately, when this happened, the beautiful shards of golden light that I would sometimes see out of the corner of my right eye stopped; hope it comes back.
I've been somewhat of a hermit now for many months. I don't talk on the phone much nor do I go out much anymore.
I've been out of work for four years. One day I heard a voice say that I won't be going back to work. This concerns me as I don't know if it was me or the Holy Spirit.
I'm also concerned that I spend most of my day on the internet trying to get more spiritual knowledge. IS THIS NORMAL? IT'S BECOME AN OBSESSION.
Are the years of trouble sleeping normal? I have hyperenergy at times, but other times I'm in a not completely awake state.