all around body numbing/psychic amnesia
by B
(Idaho)
If anyone knows of why it is that when I wake up from sleep, sometimes I wake up coughing (the alert somethings wrong) and then realize I feel numb all over, trying to breathe???
For a year I woke up that way, 3-4 times a week and be so numb I couldn't walk or barely move my arms till I calmed down and literally smacked myself in the face a few times to provoke feeling so I could focus on that feeling so I knew I was going to be ok.
I'm assuming it has to do with psychic amnesia somehow. I've even had it so bad that I woke up hearing myself go, "who's room is this...who's house is this..."who's cat is that...there's two of them???"...then craved a cigarette, then panic set it right before I could ask myself who the heck I was. Then I cried that I could ever not know who my cats were and that it was a terrible feeling that I had np place of my own to call home. (I live where I work. I have no home to go to, or family.)
I just absolutely hate it, the doctor even gave me muscle relaxers and antidepressants cause he thinks I'm having PTSD from traumatic events and from working too much. He's probably right....(no I didnt tell him about the amnesia part....its only happened 3 times over a year, i tried taken the pills he gave me but they made it worse.